Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Almost Time!!

Moving day is 3 days away!! I only have 3 more nights left in that house. Matt and I talked last night and luckily we are not really attached to the home. We had only lived there 3 years and yes it was our first home but neither of us is really attached to it.

Of course I am sad to leave it. We have had alot of great memories there. My baby Chase was only 6 months old when we moved in. He learned to walk and talk in that living room.

It was the home where Landon and Chase dyed Easter Eggs for the first time. The living room where I saw my daughter grow up right before my eyes; standing there in her cheerleading uniform with her hair all pulled back.

The house where my husband and I really learned to love each other. We learned how to talk to each other. We learned how to enjoy each others company.

I watched my kids embrace the magic on Santa and leave carrots for the reindeer.

Okay, I lied, tears are welling up thinking about all these memories. But life goes on. Matt and I made this decision on alot of prayer. We truly believe this is the best decision for our family.

We will build new memories. We will make a better lives for our family.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Hold Me While I have a MELTDOWN

I had my first official moving meltdown yesterday. Hubby is not very happy with me right now. Actually we haven't spoken since 8pm Tuesday...oops

OK, so here's the scoop. I am a planner. I am a list maker. So I made a bunch of lists detailing what we need to get done each day until the move.

I tend to freak out if I get off schedule or plans get messed up.

So I woke up at 630pm which was 1 1/2 hours behind schedule. So naturally I am already in a tizzy. We get to the new house and NE HAS DONE NOTHING ON THE LIST!! I had 5 or 6 things I wanted him to do before we went over and NOTHING was done.

I may want to add in that I also woke up sick. Not like really sick but sinus sick. I felt like complete crap, so that didn't help my attitude.

So we are over there working and my mouth just starts. I am complaining and yelling and name calling and then I decide to go to the playroom, tell the kids to get there shoes on and get in the car. I tell Matt either your spending the night here or your getting in the car now.

We spent a whole 45 minutes pretty much doing nothing at the new house.

And because I was a big bratty baby we have a TON on work to do on Saturday . Saturday the day where I wanted to spend sometime with the kids now we have to complete all the stupid work we didn't get done today.

I am so mad at my self. I don't know why I couldn't just stick it out and get some work done. I am such an idiot sometimes.

Our old house is about 85% cleared out except for the furniture we need to live from for the next week and a half. We have the kitchen, half of the bathroom and a little bit more in Emma's room to take over and all the stuff will be over. Friday before the big move I am taking all the clothes and non perishable food. So yeah, we do have alot done but I want more. I want the new house to be almost all put away before big moving day. I want to be able to plop all the furniture in and be done. We are even going to hang all the crap in the kids rooms, bathrooms and dining room before the big day.

That's the plan anyways.....hahahahaha.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Guess Who's Going to Day Shift????/

I got the job!!! I am awesome!!

I haven't been this happy or excited in awhile. I just cannot believe I got the job. No more 3rd shift!! I will be working Monday - Friday 8am - 4pm (ish)!!! I am going to be able to spend more time with the women at the shelter, I am going to be able to make more of a difference.

I found out this morning around 8am but I couldn't say anything because they were going to tell the other person who applied she didn't get the job until noon.

It really hit me when I woke up around 530pm. I had to call my boss to go over salary and all that fun stuff and then it just hit me. My life is going to be normal again. My kids might start listening to me and not taking advantage of the fact I am so tired in the evenings. I don't have to feed my kids cereal and waffles for dinner (I hate making dinner as soon as I wake up). I get to sleep in the same bed as my husband 7 days a week. The good things about this new job are endless.

And I truly believe it was God who gave me this job. I prayed about it even before I applied. I wasn't sure if it was the right move for me. So I applied. I prayed. I prayed hard. I knew if this was where I was supposed to be, God would put me there. He always has bigger plans for us and if I was needed on 3rd shift then I would of stayed on 3rd shift. I believe I can make such a difference on 1st shift. Getting right into the action. I get to do case management now!! And that is huge. That is how we get the women from shelter life back into their own lives. That is where they learn how to live away from their abusers safely. That is where they get to come and spill on their problems on my shoulders and I walk them through rebuilding their life.

I am so grateful to my bosses for giving me this opportunity. I know I am going to be great and I know I am going to love it 100%

Writing this is making me think of one of my favorite quotes

Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to no one. William Shakespeare

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

So for everyone that knows me knows I am total control freak. I make list after list after list. I make lists of lists that need to be written. I make weekly calendars off of the monthly calendars. I have a calendar in my purse, at work and at home and on my computer.
I am completely insane. So now I have decided to make a new list. I am going to complete 101 Things In 1001 Days. This begins tomorrow Wednesday April 14, 2010 and ends Tuesday January 9, 2013

I stole this idea from Loving Mom Two Boys – she is my inspiration. I had no trouble coming up with 101 Things to do, I could have kept going but then it would make for a VERY long post.

Well, I won’t keep you waiting…so here it is (and nothing is in any sort of order, I typed as it came into my head)

1. Paint Kitchen
2. Paint Family Room
3. Take down all wallpaper in large hallway
4. Power wash house
5. Landscape the front yard (and then maintain it)
6. Catch up scrapbooking (and maintain it at least every 3 months)
7. Make a chore chart for my children and make them stick to it
8. Make a cleaning schedule (one for everyday tasks and one for big things)
9. Go through everyone’s closet and donate any clothes to Goodwill
10. Buy new pots and pans
11. Get Hubby an awesome lawn mower (we have a large yard and need a much better mower)
12. Get a swimming pool for the kids
13. Organize all scrapbook supplies
14. Go through all the 30 boxes of kids clothes in basement and decide once and for all what to do with them
15. Spend an hour each week with each kid alone
16. Sleep 7 hours a night EVERY night
17. Get a new bedroom set
18. Get a new bedding set (to match the new bedroom set)
19. Start packing for vacation only one week ahead (not a month ahead)
20. Stick to the Christmas budget
21. Lose 10lbs
22. Lose 20 lbs
23. Lose 20 lbs
24. Lose 20 lbs
25. Lose last 10 lbs
26. Quit smoking in 2010
27. Go to a marriage retreat with my husband
28. Read my bible
29. Become more active at church
30. Learn more about God, learn more stories
31. Take a financial class
32. Read 50 books
33. Drink ONLY water for one week
34. Build an emergency fund equal of 2 months paychecks
35. Make a will
36. Get 2 bookshelves and proudly display a lot of my books
37. Have Matt and kids get passports so we can go to Niagara Falls
38. Go one month with no fast food (does not include pizza)
39. Continue going once a month with the girls from church
40. Go one entire weekend with no internet/cell phone
41. Go one entire week wearing NO sweat pants or tops
42. Get a pedicure
43. Get a facial
44. Go on vacation Summer 2010
45. Go on vacation Summer 2012
46. Go to Idlewild summer 2011
47. Write one letter a month to a friend or family member (not email, an actual letter)
48. Complete budget for 2010
49. In December complete budget for 2011
50. In December 2011, complete budget for 2012
51. Visit my grandma 3 times a week at the very least
52. Organize DVD’s in alphabetical order
53. Keep food cupboards organized (new food in back)
54. Do not dye hair for 3 months- let it grow and get healthy again
55. Get more 4th of July decorations
56. Get more Christmas decorations
57. Get more Thanksgiving decorations
58. Wean my kids off fruit snacks
59. Start eating more sugar free foods
60. Play board games with kids once a week
61. Get a new fish and not let him die
62. Exercise 3 times a week at gym (I can get in free with my awesome health insurance card)
63. Try to make my bed every day
64. Get a new lap top
65. Get a smart phone
66. Get new couches
67. Send thank you cards after all the kids birthdays
68. Make a difficult cookie for the cookie party
69. Make a new dish each month
70. Eat home more often
71. Only have chicken nuggets and Mac n cheese once a week
72. Take trash to the trash can, I will not throw any more candy wrappers behind my headboard (yeah, I know, I’m like 5)
73. Stop sneaking sweets and if I do, only once a week
74. Only 2 McDonalds Frappes a week (does that count as fast food?? It’s only coffee right?)
75. Only go to WalMart, Target and Giant Eagle once a week.
76. Do not let the gas in my car get below ¼ tank
77. Take a pottery class
78. Join a book club through the library
79. Take kids to story time once a week (or every two weeks)
80. Commit to not committing to so much each week
81. Have a GNO at a hotel once a year with 3 close friends
82. Only have one selling party a year (ya know, like Pampered Chef, Tastefully Simple, PartyLite..etc, I could go on and on)
83. Go to each and every one of Emma’s cheerleading games
84. Try and be team mom for season 2011 for Emma’s cheer squad
85. Get an iPod
86. Spend 20 minutes a day talking with my husband without my children around
87. Get a new portable dishwasher
88. Shop more at discount stores i.e. Big Lots, Sav A Lot, Marc’s
89. Shop less for needless things
90. Get contacts
91. Play more Rockband and get really good so I am rock out with my brother
92. Be nicer to my ex husband
93. Blog at least once a week – shoot for 2 but will be happy with one
94. Twitter more often
95. Facebook a little less
96. Go on a date with my husband once a month
97. Get a houseplant and not kill it
98. Organize filing cabinet
99. Go through and organize ALL junk drawers through out the house
100. Save $5 for each item I complete off this list
101. Make a new list after 1001 days

OK, so I know that was extremely long, sorry. But now to the fun part!! The winner of the giveaway!!

I picked a winner the fancy way..slips of paper in a bowl…I know, I am so classy

And the WINNER is………………. Liz from Loving Mom 2 Boys

(Seriously weird since the whole post I wrote was I was inspired by
her post. I wrote the post then picked a winner)

So Liz, make sure you email your contact info as soon as you can!! And don’t forget to include where you would like to have the $25 gift card for!!!

And thank you all for the great tips - keep em coming!

Monday, April 12, 2010

It's coming....I pinky swear

I do have the winner from my very first giveaway BUT I am working on an awesome post with it, so please bear with me.....

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Anxiety...How I Love Thee

My anxiety level has been so high lately. I think I am going nuts. Just looking at my calendar makes my heart race....seriously...look for your self...
And this doesn't include moving. I have a seperate schedule that is broke down by week and inlcudes a moving schedule. It has how many loads o' crap that we need to get over each day along with any stores we have to go to, any appointments, birthdays, previous engagements etc. it's alot of crap to do and I am really starting to freak the heck out.

My old house is a mess, the new house is a mess. I feel like I can't get ahead right now. I am constantly laying in bed thinking about what should I pack next or what we are going to need or which curtains should go in which room, better yet, which curtin rods should go in which room. Then I start thinking about where all my pictures and decorations are going to go. It's like a hamster wheel in my brain. Seriously.

On top of all this I applied for a day shift position at the shelter where I work. And I REALLY want it. I want it sooooo bad. Working a first shift job would help my life so much. Workin midnight to 8am is rough, really rough. Sleeping is a pain, waking up is a pain. And it's a very lonely shift. Most of the time the residents are sleeping, my friends are sleeping, the freakin world is sleeping. I know I have said it before, but I thrive on stress. I work so much better under pressure. I need the stress. Of course my shift is stressful at times but it's not a constant.

So I am really nervous about it and I am praying so hard that it comes through for me. I really am.