Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The One Subject I HATE Talking About...

My weight.
Since hardly anyone that knows me IRL reads this, I feel pretty safe posting all this and I guess I really don't care if someone really knows who I am. I have nothing to hide.

Over the past 10 years I have gained so much weight. Let me take you on a little time travel.

January 1999 - weighed 170 - just got home from Basic Training and I was lean. I did weight more then I wanted but I was wearing a size 9-10 jean and I am about 5'11, so it was all good.

April 2000 - wedding - 160lbs - not bad at all, I could still totally wear a bikini

August 2001 - found out I was pregnant with first child - 180lbs - so I put on a few pounds, you know it's that new marriage weight

April 2002 - baby Emma born, weight 3 days before delivery 272lbs, weight after delivery 260 lbs - needless to say, I went a little over board on the whole eating for 2 thing

August 2003 - Day after coming home from vacation - 215lbs - not bad, lost a ton of weight but still a lot more to go

June 2004 - going through divorce and that reeks havoc on your body - 170 lbs - yeah - I have never been more excited to see that number again and I looked soooooo good

May 2005 - 195 lbs - I remarried and was 3 months pregnant with Landon, still not bad, but not were I wanna be

December 2005 - Landon born in late November - 228lbs for Christmas

February 2006 - doing Weight Watchers (paid for by my awesome grandma) 208lbs

March 2006 - found out I was pregnant again with Chase - due in early November 2006

November 2006 - can't remember exactly, but I know it was somewhere around 255lbs when I delivered

January 2007 - back down to 215lbs, still need to lose more

Now the next months are kinda crazy and I wasn't taking care of my self, so we are going to jump to ....

February 2009 - 245lbs - I know, I know - what the heck happened??

August 2nd 2009 (also my birthday and the day before I started my diet) 257lbs!!!!! What is going on here?? What happened??

So there you have it, that is the real me and I am really fat. I have no issues saying I am fat because I am.

I am currently working with someone on a nutrition plan and exercise plan. The nutrition plan is really hard because it is so much different then anything I have ever done. But I am giving it 100%. I am basically on a low carb, high protein, high healthy fat diet. According to all the paperwork I had to fill out for this plan, my body has a difficult time processing carbs.

I have lost about 10lbs but I know I could of lost more. I really struggle with overeating. I have no portion control. I eat until I want to puke. I am getting much better but I think it's going to be a process. I have to retrain my thinking. I have to retrain how I eat. I have to learn to make better choices. I have to learn that I am getting older and I need to be thinking more about my health. I have to think about my children and what I am teaching them.

I am going to do this. I am going to lose weight and I am going to become healthy again. I am going to exercise more and maybe even one day I might start running again. I AM GOING TO DO THIS
So here are my goals:

Ultimate goal is 170 lbs (going to take a while to get there)

In the mean time, I have short term goals. I am looking to lose 30lbs. That will put me at 227lbs.

My next goal is 200lbs and final goal is 170lbs.
October 2004
August 2, 2005 - 6 months pregnant with Landon

At my heaviest - July 4th, 2009

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Many More Random Thoughts and Pictures

I can't believe I am already planning our beach vacation for next summer. See, we go to the beach every other year. It's just too expensive for us to do it every year. And actually the last time we went was June 2007, so it'll be 3 years before we get back.

That kinda makes me sad. Three years since I have seen the beach. I see a big problem with that.

And I know we are very fortunate enough to be going on vacation at our age with 3 kids. Growing up we never went anywhere and if I did it was with my grandparents and it was to Maryland or Chicago to see family. I have many friends who are unable to go on vacation. So I do feel very blessed to be able to go.

Matt and I plan for it all year, starting January 1st. We decided to have the tax man with hold more taxes every pay so we can get a HUGE tax refund every year. And yeah yeah yeah I know all about us giving our money to the government and blah blah blah, but it works for us. We are able to buy MANY things with our tax return.

This year we already have a huge list including: trip to Virginia Beach, replace big bay window, new back yard wooden fence, 30th birthday party (think 80's prom/wedding reception) and about 5 other misc household repairs. So you can see that we get back a pretty hefty amount if we can buy all this and still have money leftover for fun stuff too!! I am already doing the tax return count down!

Well, enough about all that. I just thought it was fun that I was planning next years beach vacation.

And now for your viewing pleasure, here are a bunch of random pics from the last few weeks of my lovely summer. (Idlewild pictures and post are coming soon!!)

Here we are on the turnpike, it was soooo much fun!!

I made her try it on as soon as we got home from picking it up. I am such a nut case!

Chase running away from the fountains, he is deathly afraid of water, poor kid...

Landon getting soaked!! He had alot of fun

Well folks, until next time. (I really have to get better about this whole blogging thing. I'm still new and sometimes the computer sucks and I can't figure out things but I'm learning, just bear with me)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Here's a thought far ya.......

Niece Melody: where do necklaces come from?

Daughter Emma: oh, I know, I know! They come from China! Everything comes from China"

This coming from the mouth of a 7 year old. I just kinda sat there in the car and snickered. I then went on to tell Emma and Melody about all the things that are made here in the US. Emma of course then asked "well, then why does all my stuff say made in china?"

At this point I have no idea what to say. I found myself feeling very stupid at this point. So I did what any good mom does..... change the subject.

Did ya have fun at cheerleading tonight hon??

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Landon = Potty Mouth

So, my hubby and I took the kids out to eat last week for lunch.

Behind us there is a very old couple and probably the daughter.

As soon as the server walks away from taking our drink order, Landon looks at me and LOUDLY says,

"Chase smells like dog shit!"

People from a three table radius stare at us and give us that look, you know the "what kinda parents are you?" look.

Let me back track for a second. A few days before that I was changing Chase's diaper and I said something like "whoa, Chasey, you smell like dog shit, umm, I mean crap" That's it, that's all I said.

So what did Matt and I do??? Laughed. We laughed so hard that I had to get up and go to the bathroom before I peed my pants. I just couldn't even believe he said that.

And since hardly anyone knows me or my family, my boys, Chase, who is 2 1/2 and Landon, who's 3 1/2, can speak VERY well. The doctor is always impressed and so is just about anyone who meets them. They are just natural born talkers. So with that being said, there is no way to even try and mask what they say.

Ok, so back to the story. I get back from the potty and we are chillin, you know, coloring on the placemats and Landon begins to speak again. This time he says.

"Mommy, does your boob still hurt?"

Again, pretty loud. Loud enough for people to stare, AGAIN.

Back story on that one..... I had an infected cyst in my boob and it was really painful and we all know how kids LOVE to elbow you in the boob (or groin, if your a man) any chance these possibly get.

So yeah, maybe I should start watching my mouth more. I don't think it's right that I could write a 4 page blog on all the inappropriate things my kids have said. I just have a potty mouth and my hubby has learned from hearing me, so now he has a crappy mouth too.

OK, just one more, just because I just remembered this....

When talking to the hubby, I'll sometimes say something like "Chase took a big shit today" or can you go change the shitty trashcan cause the boys decided to shit a lot". So Landon began saying the work "shit" a lot and he was using is correctly. After a few days of correcting him, he says

"Mommy, I pooped, I didn't shit, I pooped."

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

The sunburn that would not end......

I just wanted to let everyone know that for the past 3 hours I have been at work I have been peeling the sun burned skin that I got on Monday July 27th from spending 3 little hours at the my boob.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

And now my Jeep is gone,,,,,

Man, this blog of mine is turning into quite the downer. I just seem to have some bad luck this month. Before I tell you the Jeep story let me just say that we have opened up a new checking account, we have received our new debit cards and check book, a friend of mine bought me new DVD players for the kids since we were road tripping it for a few days and I might die without them, we got print outs of our social security numbers and mine and Matt's cards are ordered, I got my new drivers license and the homeowners claim for the ring and everything else is going pretty smooth right now. Just waiting for them to get a copy of the police report and then it's pretty much done and they can cut me a check so I can go and get my new ring.

There, with that out of the way I can tell you my Jeep story. And you know since I love detail, this may be on the longer side. And I will point out that after this post I am really going to try and have more upbeat posts, I mean, come on, something good is bound to happen to me one of these days.

So Tuesday was our big day. We were taking a 2 1/2 hour road trip to PA to go to Idlewild!!!! We got all packed and left the house around 3pm. About oh, I don't know, 1 hour and 45 minutes in the trip, the Jeep (that we just bought in February, used of course) overheated, we pulled off the turnpike and everything was dry. My husband always has a thing of water in the car so he poured it in, well, I guess that wasn't enough. We resorted to pouring about 10 or so bottles of water in too. So there went all my water for the trip :(

After it cooled down, we took off!! About a mile after we left, it over heated again. I tried driving a little bit cause hubby was trying to get in to stop by playing with the heater and such but it started to shake so bad that I got really scared and pulled off the side of the road. Hubby got out, popped the hood and NOTHING!! Not a drop of coolant or water anywhere. Hubby, who is just plain awesome with cars and really knows his stuff, informed me that we were screwed. After tinkering with it for a few minutes, he gets in the car and again tells me we are screwed. And of course I ask why and he responds "it's dead". Apparently the engine has a cracked block.

So we kinda sit there for like 10 minutes just trying to figure out what to do. We are on the turnpike, right before a construction zone, no air, no nothing. We are 95 miles from home and 35 miles from the hotel...... What to do???

So we call *11, which is like the PA turnpike assistance peeps and they tell us they are sending a tow truck. And at this point we have no idea where we are even going to go. Oh, I should mention we called the tow truck at 5:25pm.

So tow truck dude shows up at 6:35, we convince him to take the Jeep to our hotel and he tells us it's $75 to hook it up and $3.50 per mile, so again we are screwed but we tell him to do it anyways - which btw, ends up costing us $170.00!!!!

So Matt rides with the tow truck guy and the kids and I have to ride with the PA turnpike First Responders people. Now here's the fun part. These First Responders are only allowed to work certain legs of the turnpike. So we get in the truck with the first guy and he tells me that he can only take me as far as the next rest stop which is like 4 miles and then another Responder will pick us up there. So whatever, that's fine.

We get to the rest stop at 7pm. And AN HOUR AND A HALF LATER the other Responder shows up. At this point my hubby is already at the hotel, the kids are about ready to kill each other, I am about ready to kill the kids and the new responder tells me the farthest he can take me is the McDonald's right off the exit!!! SOOOOOO, that still leaves me about 12 miles away from our hotel. But he was nice and told me "at least is the Big Mac museum" WTF!!! Like I really care if it's the Big Mac Museum, I hate Big Macs!!

So then I tell him, that was alright, I will just call a cab to come pick up me and my children and have them take us to the hotel. At this point he informs me that Greensburg, PA HAS NO TAXIS!!!

I am soooooo upset at this point (I think I had like 7-8 breakdowns by this point) I called my hubby all frantic cause I didn't know what else to do. I told him to run to the front desk and ask them for help.

Ask and you shall receive.

The hotel has a shuttle. They are only supposed to go in a 3 mile radius but they came all the way out and picked us up. I am eternally grateful.

So blah blah blah, we get to the hotel about 9:45, the kids run wild, we eat, get the kids ready for bed and all that fun stuff. Then it's time to talk about the Jeep.

I won't bore you with all the small details but we pretty much decided to rent a small U Haul truck then rent a towing trailer. It was about $200 for a one way trip. We priced it out and the tow company wanted about $650 to tow it back and Penske was $899 just for the truck to rent one way - INSANE!!!! So I hopped on line and booked everything.

Through all this we had family calling is out the wazoo cause I am dumb and posted a status update on Facebook even before I called anyone and told them what was going on. Cause at that point I just wanted to veg on the computer and I really didn't wanna have to explain everything cause I was already a wreck.

So again, long story short, it was decided that my sister in law, Samantha, (hubby's brothers wife) her dad was going to bring his big truck (cause it can fit all of us), then hook the towing trailer to that and tow us home. And that only cost us $100. And that's exactly what happened. He came Thursday morning, they got the Jeep all squared away on the trailer thing and we loaded the kids up and took off. We made it home in one piece, the STUPID JEEP is sitting in the drive dead as a door nail and I keep have anxiety attacks.

Cause you know we don't have the funds to fix it and we don't have the funds for a new car. I am using my grandma's 02 Buick LaSabre right now and it's amazing, but that's only temporary.

And as far as our vacation went We didn't go to Idlewild on Wednesday as planned, but good news is that it rained ALL DAY Wednesday, so we would of been rained out anyways. We went to Eat N Park for lunch then to CVS (cause we could walk there), then lots o swimming in the hotel. We had the shuttle take us to the mall where we walked around then we found the best place ever..... CHUCK E CHEESE. As crappy as hubby and I were feeling, we had to think about the kids, and this is one of their favorite places and of course they had a blast.

I just keep telling Emma, when they ask you on your first day of school "what did you do on summer vacation?", please don't tell them the truck broke down and we got stuck on the turnpike for 5 hours then we went to Eat N Park.......