And My Decison Is.......

So I didnt end up taking either position. I emailed her on Thursday and asked for a meeting on Friday. I wanted to give her my decision face to face so she could she that I still have all my passion for the job, but the jobs that were offered to me I couldnt accept due to babysitting issues and finances.

I met with her at 11am and it went really well I was able to turn down both jobs and explain why to her face. I think she was able to see my passion and my issues with taking the jobs.

But even walking in at 11am I was still not excatly sure what I was going to say or do.

But.... she said she was working on another option for me. She could not tell me much about it except that is was the 16 hr job and another job here in Akron and it was weekdays during the day. I pretty much told her I would take it. She explained that she needed till Wednesday to talk to some other people and put everything in place. She seemed pretty confident about the position happening and she said she would call me by Wednesday to either offer me the job or tell me she needed more time to get it together. But it looks like I might me heading back to work alot sooner then I expected.

All I can say is that I am very happy with how the meeting went and I am very excited to hear the options on Wednesday if she has everything ready.

I just want to get back to work. I want to help the women and the children. I want to make a difference. Thats all I want to do. This is absolutley the hardest job (besides being a mom and wife) that I have ever had. It takes the most compassion and emotions then I know what to do with at times. And I am now starting to get the hang of it. When I fisrt started I was putting too much of my personal life into the job, putting myself in the situations, thinking, what if this was me and my kids. What is someone did this to me and my babies. I am learning how to seperate that and focus on the client. I am learning how to come home and really truly appreciate everything I have. I am learning to leave my work at work. Leave my emotions at work and pick them up the next day. Remind you, I said I am learning, I have not mastered that but I am surley learning.

I just want to go back :(