November 29, 2005

Today was Landon's birthday. It was such a great day for my little man. He turned 7 years old today. I seriously have such a hard time coming to terms with how time flies. It seems like yesterday I was 39 weeks pregnant and having some serious food poisoning. This food poisoning would send me into labor and I would have my baby boy one day before his scheduled induction. I was having the induction due to symphysis separation  Basically  my pelvic bone split and it was VERY painful.

My first boy came into this world at 5:37pm weighing 8lbs, 4oz and 21 inches long. I totally rocked this labor, delivery and recovery. 20 minutes of pushing, laid down for about an hour after he was born and then I was up and moving around. It was awesome. I felt like a champ.

And just like Chase's birthday post I will now leave you with a history of birthdays. All 7 of them.

Landon's 1st Birthday!!!! (Basketball themed)

Landon's 2nd Birthday!!! (Spiderman themed)

Landon's 3rd Birthday!!! (Blue's Clues themed)

Landon's 4th Birthday!!! (no theme)

Landon's 5th Birthday!!! (no theme)

Landon's 6th Birthday!!! (football theme at the bowling alley)

Landon's 7th Birthday!!! (no theme)

And that my friends is it so far. There you have watched my baby grow up right before your eyes. As I was looking back at the years, I came across so many adorable pictures from when they were babies. But that is a whole other post.

November 6, 2012

This post has nothing to do with the election and EVERYTHING to do with my baby, Chase Allen Lee Wolfe. My baby was born 6 years ago on November 6, 2006 at 3:39pm weighing in at 8lbs 7oz and 21 inches long.

Chase is my last and final baby. <cue fake tears> I know I should be all emotional because my baby is growing up but I'm just not. I am way too excited to see my kids grow each day. I am so excited to see the new things they learn AND the new things that come out of their mouths.

Before I take you on a journey of Chase's last 6 years, I'll tell ya a little bit about how his birthday went. Chase woke up for school and screamed and cried almost right up until the bus came. He was tired and really just wanted to go back to bed. He left for school and left his class treat. Daddy ran it up to school. Chase got home from school and practically threw everything out of his backpack just to show me all the cool birthday stuff he got at school. After some chill time we went to a dinner of his choice, Burger King. Good ole Burger King. When we got there we met Aunt Sam, Uncle Josh and their children. We ordered, we ate and then it happened. CHASE LOST HIS FIRST TOOTH!!!!! He was showing Uncle Josh how loose his tooth was and Uncle Josh offered to pull and there ya a go - a first tooth out!!!

After Burger King we went to my grandma's house to celebrate with her and Aunt Alice, Uncle John and my cousin Nancy. As Chase was opening his gifts (we got him an Angry Bird robe, Angry Bird jammies and Angry Bird sheet set), he said "all my dreams came true!!!!" That kid is awesome. After presents we celebrated with the traditional birthday pumpkin pie complete with whip cream!

And now for the moment you have all been waiting for......

Chase on his very FIRST birthday!!!

Chase on his SECOND birthday!!!

Chase on his THIRD birthday!!!

Chase on his FOURTH birthday!!!

Chase on his FIFTH birthday!!!

And above we have Chase on his SIXTH birthday!!! My how time is flying. I am looking forward to many many more years of collecting these birthday pictures......

I have never felt more alone then I do right now. I may be surrounded in a house full of people, but it's still lonely.

People talk to me at work or church or even text and such but I feel so alone.

I really need someone right now and everyone is just so busy. Even the people who tell me to call or text or come over anytime, are too busy.

I understand people are busy. I'm so busy my head spins most days.

Not sure what is going on. Not sure why I feel so alone. Not sure why I can't talk to anyone. Not sure why no one is there.

But that's just what happens. I seriously think it's me. I find myself to be fun, straightforward and open. But maybe other folks see me different. I don't sugarcoat issues. I don't pretend my life is great when I'm having a bad day. I comfort those in need around me. I drop everything for someone who needs someone or something.

But why when I need someone, I still here all alone. Why when I try reaching out no one ever hears?

I just don't understand what it is that people don't want to be around me? Why am I not included in things? Why am I the one always not invited? or forgotten?

Like I said, I just feel alone right now. Every has these lives that are going on and I am just chillin here on a Friday night in my room with my door shut all alone.

Cheerleading Time!!!

(oh yeah, I am posting posts back to back, I gotta show love to all my babies)

Emma is in her 4 year of cheerleading and she completely loves it!!

I see such improvement each and every year. She is out there making friends, learning teamwork and of course getting alot of exercise in (yep, they work really hard actually).

So I will let the pictures speak for themselves........

That's my girl and I couldn't be prouder!!!

Football Time!!!

My boys are rockin it this year!!! Landon is in his second and last year of flag football and Chase is in his first year. I am so proud of these two.

Landon plays quarterback most of the time. He gets about 2-3 touchdowns per game. And playing defense he is getting flags left and right. He runs like he has jet packs strapped to his feet. That kids amazes me.

Chase is all about defense. If this were tackle football there would be alot of little guys on the ground. Chase is supposed to be just blocking but he has the tendency to just lay em out. And he is one of the smallest guys on the team but will take down kids much bigger then him.

These two guys rock!!!

So of course I am gonna post some pictures of them......

My boy Landon, #11

Chase's turn running the ball, #4

Perfect air shot of Landon

Chase doing what he does best, trying really hard not to tackle this kid

TOUCHDOWN #11

Chase and Landon right after Landon's touchdown!!

Like I said, these two boys rock my world!!!

UGH!!!

I have something to write but I can't write about it. UGH!!!!

I can't write about it until we figure somethings out. UGH!!!

So entirely frustrating. UGH!!!

Hopefully soon ya'll. UGH!!!

In his time....not mine

As I am losing weight and eating right there are some not so fun things that have been happening. Let me form a list for you...hahaha

1. my body freakin hurts, hurts all the time

2. runners knee

3. boob pain (you know, for all the movement)

and last but not least.....

4. Plantar Fibromatosis, you can read about it here. I have researched alot on the lovely Internet about it and this website may not be the best medically but it explains it in terms that even I can understand.

Basically I have (hopefully) non cancerous tumors on the arches (or plantar band) of my feet. They are painful, like really painful. The doctor thinks I may of had them for awhile but with starting running it made them aggressive.

So here's the deal....for now I have to hook my feet up to a TENS unit for 30 minutes every night. Basically I am giving my feet electroshock therapy. See awesome picture below.

 Then I have some pain creme that so far does NOTHING that I rub on as needed.

On top of that I am getting some really cool shoe inserts to help. Let me tell you, I cannot wait till I get to look cool like my grandma. I am really going to love to not be able to wear any of my flip flops, sandals or flats. I am totally going to rock the grandma shoes....oh yeah baby.


So I have to do this for however long I want. The tumors could shrink and possibly go away BUT it will just make room for new ones.

This is something that will never go away, ever. Well, unless I have the surgery. Oh yeah, I was saving the best news for last.

So the doctor was telling me all of my options. Along with the above I also have the option of the cortisone shots and I straight up said "HELL NO!!". Luckily the doctor agreed and said it does not have high helpfulness.

The second most aggressive treatment option is to go in and surgically remove each tumor as I get them. Like, for the rest of my life. Ummm, ok....NOT. I really do not feel like having surgery like ALL.THE.TIME. No thank you.

The third option and also the most aggressive (of course it''s the option the doctor suggested since I seem to have aggressive growing tumors) is to have the entire plantar band removed from each foot. The plantar band is what the tumors are growing on, so you remove that you remove the tumors.

Basically this is going to be a cut from bottom of my big toe to almost the end of my heel, they will remove the band and sew me back up. Recovery time is about 12 flippin weeks PER FOOT. Oh and he won't do both feet at once unless I agree to go to a rehab / nursing home type facility until I can walk.

After the surgeries I would have to wear some sort of inserts like for the rest of my life.

As you can see my husband and I have some major decisions to make. It's just not about the surgery but it's about being off work for 12 weeks per foot, it's about who is going to help with the house and the kids since he works 1230-900p. There are a ton of things to figure out.

I'm scared. But I'm good. I have my God with me and I know he will guide Matt and I into the right decision. I know he will. What needs to happen will all happen in his time, not mine. I just have to remember that. And to pray for clarity.

(as a funny side note, before I posted this I did spell check, I spelled aggressive wrong EVERY single time throughout this post...I am just that awesome)