Loserville.... Party on One

I lost my job today, I am not ready to talk about it but when I do I am sure I will blog alot about it, basically lost it due to funding and my grant being lost.

Not much to say

So I am having a problem of finding things to blog about. I dont have awhole lot going on right now. We finally got a "new" car. It's a 99 Cherokee and it's not that bad. My hubby has a few things to fix on it and we have to get it painted ASAP. The hood and fenders are black and I do not want to continue to drive around like that. Then the heater, it only blows on high which is really annoying and loud, then the rear shocks, which again is a small problem but it sounds like it's going to fall apart, but hubby assured me it wasn't. Then the big thing to me is something called a steering stablizer. Right now when you turn the steering wheel an awful sound clicks and the steering wheel has trouble turning. Hubby bought that part last night and is waiting for the weather to not be so freezing, then he can replace that. He actually bought all the parts but only the steering thing was in stock, man I love the fact that he works at a place where he can get parts soooo cheap and pretty qucik. All the parts came to $100 and some change. So after he fixes the three little problems and it gets painted it will be a pretty nice car for me.

My friend Tara called me today and told me they are sending home the cheerleading sign up papers today for Emma. I am soooo excited. Last year they had 4 sign ups and we missed the first one, so we went to go to the second one and the last three where cancelled because they had to many girls sign up at the first one. This time I am going to show up a half hour early and wait there. I WILL get her signed up this year. I can't have her disappointed two years in a row. Oh, and for those of you that dont know, Tara is a teacher in the public school system where my daughter attends. She gives me the scoop and all the help I need with Emma. And she is a big help to me always.

And with Landon and the whole still peeing the bed thing, my monster in law told me that she heard that giving them a teaspoon on honey before bed will stop the bed wetting, so guess what, I went out today and bought some honey. I am going to try it tonight and see if it works. I usually don't take any advice from her but at this point I am willing to try anything.

Well, I had better get back to work. Gotta a busy day and lots of kids and women need my help :)

It's MRI Result Time....

So, I have now had a headache for 18 straight days. I went to the doc on day 11 and he scheduled me for an MRI on day 14. I got the results yesterday and I have a small bleed up in my head, but that will go away on it's own. Doc said to keep taking ibuprofen cause that helps the swelling in my brain, which in turn helps the bleeding, which helps the pain, BUT.... it is sooooo hard on my tummy. And the doc also put me blood pressure medication that I will prolly have to take like 4ever now, but if it helps with my head then thats fine.

I know it's been a very long time since my last blog, but seriously, not a whole lot is happening. My stepdad is recovering at home and I am pretty sure he is doing well.

Lets start with the kidsEmma - she is doing really well, I got her report card and she is doing so good, I Am soooo proud of her.

Landon: that litlle spit fire, he drives me nuts daily. Most days I feel like I cant control him. He just kinda does what he wants when he wants. I am trying to figure him out, but who knows with 3 year olds. And we are having a potty training issue. He is fully trained during the day, he is awesome, but the night is another story. He pees the bed every night. We cut him off like 630 - 700pm and they go to bed at 915pm, and typically they dont go to sleep until 1030 or so. And after we put them in bed he will usually come out once and pee in the potty and we make him go before we even put him to bed. SO WHY IS HE PEEING HIS BED??????????? I need some suggestions, so please comment or email me.

And Baby Chase: He is turing into his brother, he is starting to get a mouth and an attitude and all he wants to do is to fight with his brother. These two children fight and scream almost all day. But Chase is still a little cuddler and so loving.

So I guess that pretty much brings everyone up to date. We really havent been doing awhole lot because of the darn snow. Did I mention I hate snow!!!! I am so glad it's all melting and all the snow is gone for right now. Well, I guess I should get back to work :)

I feel so bad......

So I have not been a nice person lately. I have been snapping at my sister, my friends, my husband and my children. I NEED A BREAK!!! but on the other hand I want to do fun stuff with my hubby and children but leave whenever I want to. I think this is normal but who knows.

My best friends mom died today a little before 330pm. I feel terrible for her and I am finding my self getting really upset and crying over this. I have only met her mom a handful a times but I cant understand why I am so upset. I think I am upset for my friend who just lost her mother to cancer. Then it gets me thinking about my own mother and well you know the rest. And to top it off I dont know what I can do for her. I want to be there and help out and do whatever I can but I dont know what that is. I wish I could just do more, be a better friend.

So I am not sure why this blog is so blah, my myspace one is so much better. Maybe I need to change when I am blogging or something. If you want check out www.myspace.com/wolfe528 You wont be disappointed

Might as well blog....

So I don't blog alot, I have to change that. It feels like I am sooo busy all the time. Although I really don't know with what. I am always cleaning something, organizing something, watching some kinda recorded show. And I always have a list of things to do. No matter what day what time, I can always produce some sorta to do list. And that sucks. I never feel like a normal person who can just enjoy life and let things be. I just want to go along with things and be happy with my house and life, just for a moment. I always have to be doing something and if I'm not doing something, I am running around going to Walmart, visiting my grandma, just mindless errands that really don't need done. I would rather take my children out in the freezing cold then sit home and relax. I bring so much pressure and stress on my self. I need to quit, but how do you quit something you are so addicted to. How can I make myself learn to relax and calm down. Yes, I know I can pop happy pills which I have and they have such weird and sometimes horrible (like hair falling out), and the fact that I have to remember to take them every day, haha that's how I got Landon, taking birth control everyday was such a pain, so we all know I am not very responsible.

Wow, I just rambled about nothing and more nothing. Why because I have nothing todo so I have to make up stuff to do, I am such a nut case.

I am soooo done...

I have been so stresses out lately. I almost cannot take it anymore. 2009 has been the worst year so far and it's only the 8th of Jan. It just feels like everything is falling apart and I am just sitting here watching it happen. I am watching friends and family go through awful things, my step dad is in the ICU and god only knows what's going to happen, my car keeps breaking, but that's a whole different story since we are borrowing the car from friends, Matt failed the Akron PD test twice and he's all pissy. I just need everything to stop and be ok for awhile. All I do is cry. I cry day and night. I am tearing up right now cause I cannot handle the stress. I need a break from this life. I mean at least if my car is going to break, I should have money to fix it - now I need to find 77.87 for the damn part. Well, my boss is back, i gotta vent later

So it's been over a year...

I have decided to start blogging on this website and myspace. If I write one here I will copy it over to myspace and vice versa. As soon as I get home from work I am going to try and add some more pictures to this one and make it look all cool like my sisters - Love Ya Amy!!